unexplained,unexpected,unexplored

Wedding dress

2010-03-21T11:33:00.000-07:00

I would argue
Then you would cry
As you’re struggling, I would only get stronger
My heartaches behind these shadows
My face brightens up as I see your smile
I worry that you might notice my feelings
And I get scared that the gap between us would widen
I hold my breath
Then I bite my lips
Then I pray that she would leave his side.

Baby, please don’t hold those hands
Cuz you should be my lady
Please look at me, I’ve been waiting all this time.

Once the music ends, you’ll be with him forever
I prayed and prayed that this day wouldn’t come
The wedding dress you once wore
The wedding dress you once wore
The wedding dress you once wore

You, who never understood my feelings
Because of that, I ended up despising you
Then I wished a misfortune upon you
But now, my eyes are dry
I try to talk to you but I realized that I’m alone
Every night, I would look back and think
If I already knew the results
Then I close my eyes
Then I dream an endless dream
Then I pray she would leave his side.

Baby, please don’t hold those hands
Cuz you should be my lady
Please look at me, I’ve been waiting all this time.

Once the music ends, you’ll be with him forever
I prayed and prayed that this day wouldn’t come
The wedding dress you once wore
The wedding dress you once wore
The wedding dress you once wore

By all means, be happy with him
So I can move on
Please erase me out of your heart
Although I tried my best but, no oh~

I’ve been living the lies for too long
Yet, she would look at me and smile.

taken from:
http://minsarang.wordpress.com/2009/11/13/lyrics-tae-yang-wedding-dress-kor-rom-eng/

心里不舒服。

2010-01-26T08:24:00.001-08:00

i dunno if i'm thinking too much ?

or if its the fact that i stand to have a chance?.

theres too many differences between us but i still end up getting attracted to you.

i always think that i can't be matched up with you.
even since those few years back i had the feeling that i couldn't match up to your standards.

you think that education is important for me..

i think that pursueing my happiness is the most important.

i wanna dote on you.
you seem to be very reluctant.

we like different things

It always appeared to me that i could never grab hold of your interest to being around me .

i think that there's a barrier around you
it's like you seem to be neglecting how i feel about you.

I think its hard for things to remain as it is .

its now time to let things begin or let things end once and for all..
but i don't know if i am thinking too much .

Went to harry's today:)

2010-01-23T08:58:00.000-08:00

Yeah went to harry's with roseLyn and Sam today...Hahz..skipped pool training again...before we went to harry's had to bloody wait for Chen yan ting for so long lo...hot oso de lo.den on de way i seriously thought i got all of us lost so in case we were we stopped at far east to shop for Sam and rose's stuffs and i learned that if u went shopping with pretty girls ...u get to see more pretty girls :)Hahz...den Sam bought bikini's and rose bought specs and den we prepared to go harry's once again..but we cab-ed dere...LOL...when we were in the cab rose tried to get the uncle to ject me but the uncle jitao dao her like siao..!haha...den when we reached dere ,filled up a application form and den the manager den come say have to confirm with the office den can let the two of dem work:)Hahz...funny day man...lol after that i ended up at wen's house and right now am blogging with my phone...awesome man.!

friday sucks with tests after school

2010-01-15T03:10:00.000-08:00

damn suckie day..
theres UT after sch
den end up i didnt even study for it
went ahead to do the UT but didnt knw a crap...
LOL
try here try dere...
end up
didnt even finished
and hey
wah damn no mood
lol
i think i'm gonna work with yong wei at the pub alr...but not sure sia
lol
scar-ly cannot juggle two jobs at the same time .
LOL

幸福

2010-01-11T09:25:00.000-08:00

我很幸福

因为我常在你身边

这样就够了。

小事始终是小事，如果我常告诉你所有的小事，累计起来就会是个大事。所以我从来就不会告诉你我任何事。
我宁愿一个人看你高兴也不告诉你我一个人在伤心这种小事。

love is ...?

2010-01-10T07:55:00.000-08:00

LOVE is long suffering
is kind
is free of jealous , envy and pride.

LOVE does not display unseemly behavior
is unselfish,
is not touchy , fretful or resentful,
takes no account of the evil done to it.

LOVE hates evil.
is associated with honesty.

LOVE protects
trusts
hopes
preseveres.

LOVE triumphs.

LOVE is greater than either faith or hope.

LOVE is u...

guess its not me thou...LOL

so so boring

2010-01-04T23:07:00.000-08:00

DAMN it la...zzzz
i hate to go to sch in the morning ,,,
makes me so slpy..
wah damn cb wan
stanley showed me a video of a china guy go beat a china pregnant lady in macdonalds in china all because of a McCurly...
ccb
the woman pregnant lei
then he zham him like free wan bodoh..
sibei cb
made me wanna fly to china go wack the bugger la..
sibei fuck wan lei
first the melamine . now pregnant lady...
i wonder wad's next lo...
they bring back emperor ruling...zzz
sibei fuck wan ...
ROAR
sibei sian....

its been so long since then

2009-12-05T13:49:00.000-08:00

omg
i think
i damn long too lazy to blog about stuffs already
zzz

i think its just the lazy clutches of evil demons....
lol

IDK
lazy la

damn bored thats why i rather blog around,

i am currently drinking at wen's hse
damn
drinking made me think of u
bloody facebook thingy
made me think about her...
that retard

crap

haiz

wad to do
only can get drunk now and forget about it when i wake up

i think this pass 9 mths plus
i
learnt how to - speak simple simple french
- got a new class
- started to like wearing suits.
- decided to carry on learning boxing!
- rest my leg
lol
retarded long time to think about wad to do with my life when i was already doing them without thinking...LoL

RICH MAN

2009-06-03T01:05:00.000-07:00

haha
a rich man made fun of me being poor last nite
haha
too bad i poor lo
money makes the world go round eh but u knw ah
if u use ur parents hard earned money to act as ur own ah den think that u can use it to compare to a poor dude whose family's been poor ah then smth is wrong man
i mean hey i dunno how u got ur money ah
but i can sae i got mine thru hard work ah...i splurge but i am splurging my own hard earned money...i dun have to take from my parents to act like i'm a rich kid...
and for god's sake la
u're alr 20 yrs old and we're in the 21st century ...
i retained but eh...its like i took a yrs break b4 going in to a poly
i no money but eh...i never asked ur gf to treat me...she or u may frame me...but we all knw .. .
maybe she did...but hey i can sae its like once in a while u do shit stuffs
so at least i treated her back...
wad did u do?
bring my gd fren into the picture and use him to lie so as to let u win ah?
pls la boy boy
20 yrs old liao...tell lies oso dunno how to use a more realistic lie...i think u need lying lessons from an old fren of mine from me and ur gf's secondary sch...oh and that dude oso used to woo her and i was the following dude in line to try to woo her...:)
u loser...
just need to becareful u dun get beaten up in a club again ah .. .
u never knw how smart u kind of rich ppl maybe at times man... well
as to all who dunno, this is all talking about sharon quah's bf mr .tay
yes he insulted me being poor and claims that i'm dumb cause i retained..
wad to do...ppl rich wad...can sae wad ever he want...can even get beaten up in club for dunno wad reason oso...haiz...thk god i'm poor man:]

happy valentines day

2009-02-14T07:16:00.000-08:00

Its de day that i get reminded by all those people that have flowers in their hands .
hey hey hey,
i still got no date for valentines man
not that i dun want 1 ...
but i just dun
i think its cuz i still like the same person?
maybe ?
but its impossible i think?
haha
so i have to enjoy singlehood even on such a day...
anyways. . .happy valentines day y'all

2009-02-08T07:45:00.000-08:00

兄弟

we met in the court

we fought in the court

we had fun in the court

we lost on the court

we joked on the court

we shine like kings together on the court

you trained me on the court

you taught me on the court

you played against me on the court

i saw u win on the court

i saw u lose on the court

i played with u on the court

now u can't be on the court no more

now u can't teach me no more

now i won't see u no more

but i rmbed wad u taught me

i rmbed how u pushed me

i rmbed how u would motivate me

i will play like u on the court

i will play for u on the courts

i will play with u in my heart on the court

thk u brother

we were a brotherhood

and in the brotherhood

no one gets forgottened

trust me

i'll still aim to overtake u

only now my aim has gotten alittle higher

i have to

because i knw u'll be going up dere

so i have to aim higher than heavens to win u

just u watch me do it

the whole brotherhood will do it

u just sit dere and watch us do it.

we can

we will

wait for us to do it my brother!

rest in peace Zi yu

u were a great teacher,u were a great motivator, u were a great joker, u were a great baller and u'll always be a great fren

we will miss u and we all love u

take care brother

love song

2009-01-19T22:09:00.000-08:00

listening to love song now...
after so long neva post
so lazy to write
sian
now smth happened
more sian
sian sian sian
haiz
lucky holidaes soon !!

let go and grab on to smth...
dun juz hang on for the stubborness
let go and get hold of smth better, smth that u can get hold of
sons-of-a-bitch
i am letting go
not gonna hold on....
flirtatious ass bitches...
worst then the lims(ask me for translation...not really about the surename.)
bleah
sick of thinking bout it...
gonna vomit my guts out soon...

changs birthday

2008-12-30T09:12:00.000-08:00

itsCHANG'S BIRTHDAY !!!
just finished giving him de bashing of the year and omg !
we had so much fun man!!
haha
we smashed cake
we dao pok-ed him
we played with the disgusting sparkling juice
we sang him two b'dae songs!
haha

b4 dat went to bedok jetty to fish with GJ, dianne and weini
we spent like half de dae dere and we only caught 1 miserable fish la
but it was moderate in size and erhmm
i caught the fishie!!
haha

den half way eugene came to meet us...dun knw for wad reason la but WTH
he got a car man!!
like the ccar 1 mth old liao!!
haha
JEALOUS DE LO!!!

haiz
if only my fmily was in the bah gua business...
den i'll have my own car now too man,,,.,.,
haha

dats all for today babes

ciaossu~~!!

long time neva post man

2008-12-28T06:44:00.000-08:00

woah!!
long time haven't been updating my blog
its still alive but the author is too lazy to blog
haha

i think the most interesting thing that happened to me in my blog absence is that i went to my mom's clinic's doctor's hse to have a post christmas dinner and it was AWESOME~!!

my god the dude's hse has three storeys...nth big u may thing but he has a pool table at the top and he has a wine bar at the first floor...!! i lsot count of how many bottles of wine he has man...
cuz he was drowning me with all his expensive wine man!! i mean how gracious can a host be man...the food was awesome...cuz he hired some special cooks that specializes with BBQ food man...
like i went in and looked around for 5 mins...
after the 5 mins i was stunned and amazed for 50 mins...
den i enjoyed the wine and food for the next few hours...
den i went home and i was reminising the enjoyment i had in his he for de whole nite...

now i understand y most parents want their kids to be doctors....
CUZ DEY EARN BIG BUCK$$$$!!!!

i knw that this is something i'll neva forget...
the graceful host ...the succulent lamb ribs....the remarkably gd wine and brandy...their hospitality and their niece;]
haha
juz kidding...

haha

-ciaossu~~~!!!

Lappy i love u~~

2008-12-15T04:05:00.000-08:00

YEAH....!!
I my lappy back l.iao
finally after more than a week
those dudes are cool la
they changed the whole screen!
yes ah!!

in between this week
i went -to WEST chalet
- night cycling till dun knw wad time in de morning.
- cycled from pasir ris to changi village, then back to pasir ris then cycled to Terminal 3, then back to pasir ris again in de morning.
- in between dat we went to a court and we all tried to dunk.which we did...have photos to prove.
- then we went to have a morning dip in the pool.(freaking cold.!!)
- then i finally buay tahan i slp
- woke up in the afternoons juz in time for the BBQ.
- den went to buy some mussles!!(which i spoilt in the end cuz add TOO much salt)
- den end up drinking vodka!![ 3 bottles were dere. i helped with 2.]
- i caught a mysterious cold and ended up sleeping till 1 am.
- woke up and found desmond and Weechong half drunk;]
- den dey went to 7-11 to buy 1 more bottle of vodka and they both finished it pure
- end up they got drunk and went on a vomitting frenzy.
- they vomit we take care of them till dawn like dat den rain....
- den we slept and we all went home b4 de cleaners blames us for the vomit in the toilet!
- in the bus i slept till i reached TPY
- went home to shit and slept again!! woot!!

thats roughly all de things i did that was worth to mention and in between weechong getting drunk and vomitting frenzy was some messed up crap he blurt out whuch i will not mention!!haha
i can only sae : 一！二！三！.......四....啊啊啊啊啊啊！！！

haha
only west peeps that were awake at that moment knws wad i'm toking abt.haha
well
will post the pics as long as i get it !!

ciaossu~~~!!

stagnant

2008-11-30T17:29:00.000-08:00

my blog has gone stagnant
almost barren
but hey
you knw y?
its obvious
cuz i lazy to update already
haha
see
lazy to continue
cuz i writing a story
i will post it as soon as i finish
maybe la. . .

ciaossu~~~

stupid melanie made me do this retarded quiz...

2008-11-21T00:54:00.000-08:00

START!

Rule #1 People who have been tagged must write their answers on their blogs and replace any question that they dislike with a new question formulated by themselves.

Rule #2 Tag 5 people to do this quiz and those who are tagged cannot refuse. These people must state who they were tagged by and cannot tag the person whom they were tagged by continue this game sending it to other people.

1.Do you have secrets?

duh

2. Would you fall in love with a girl younger than you?

probably?

3. Do you enjoy going to school?

hell no

4. What is your current dream job?

pro boxer

5. Will you fall in love with your best friend?

yes,i had

6. Which is more blessed, loving someone or being loved by someone?

both

7. Will you forgive the person who had play around with your feelings?

see my mood

8. If the person you like knows you like him/her, what would be your reaction if he/she said yes?

I will run to west, climb on top of the monkey bar,flip down,sprain my ankle and crawl home,happily.

9. Is there anything that made you extremely happy?

ok la...hai hao hai hao

10. What takes you down the fastest?

a gun,or planet nebiru

11. How would you see yourself in 10 years time?

i would sae" damn,u're getting old man!"

12. Who is currently the most important people to you?

myself

13. What is/are the most important thing(s) in life?

my lfe

14. Would you rather be single and rich or married but poor?

i need love . . . not money,,,love:)

15. What your favourite colour?

black& red & white

16. Would you give your all in a relationship?

see with who lo...u give some,i'll give more.

17. If you fall in love with two people simultaneously, who would you pick?

most probably both...

18. Would you forgive and forget no matter how horrible a thing the someone has done?

depends...its for me to decide if u'll get to see te nxt sunrise.

19. Will you confess to the person you like/love?

is to see if i dare to go the person first,then i'll think if i should confess...but ya...of course will la

20. 5 people i'm gonna sabo:

1)Chun Hao

2) Samantha

3) alan

4) Nelson

5) Arthur

long awaited update

2008-11-15T10:50:00.000-08:00

haha
long time neva update my blog
lazy i guess
haha
woot
went to ubin today
15th nov
went to cycle like mad and feed those poor hungry mosquitoes
we reached like around 12 or wad ba
den rent bike to cycle around ubin and stuffs,
haaha
WC and SW had to share those dual bikes cuz SW cant cycle and WC had to cycle her cuz he was de one who actually insisted that he could teach her to cycle within an hour and since she didnt wanna ride a single bike, WC had to cycle with her and they got stuck together with a lousy two sitter bike , hwich BTW tire punctured half way when we got lost and had to go back to where we started to go switch with another lousy 2 sitter bike.lol
den we went to chek jawa eventually and we saw a wild boar near the entrance when we were parking our bikes outside,alan even saw piglets with it and i only saw 2 of them cuz he said there were 3 piglets following the big boar,
then we went in to the chek jawa de seaside dere and saw a lot of mudskippers and mister lived-too-long-in-the-city Dao got so amazed by the giant mudskipper that he saw,haha
wth
mudskipper onli.relax la alan!!
hhaaha
den we went to take a view in top of the viewing tower inside chek jawa and well,didnt stay long cux kinda getting crowded by tourists and so we left for the harbour and went home after a dinner,which we ended ourselves with nelly, chang and jackie together to go to 50 plus basketball court to TOK people ...lol
ok la
quite tired liao but still can manage to keep winning ah
haha
okok
go slp liao
bb'

ciaossu~~~~!!

nb have to do quiz

2008-11-05T10:13:00.000-08:00

1. The person who tagged you is?
:Arthur

2. Your relationship with him/her?
:Friend

3. Your 5 impressions of him/her.
1)a hiah
2)WPZ
3)westernity
4)nipple king
5)the man with the iron nipples

4. The most memorable thing he/she had done for you.
:err....haha
5. The most memorable thing they had said to u?
:kerm u can write a book.
7. If he/she becomes your lover, thing he/she has to improve on will be?
:reincarnate into a girl.
8. If he/she become your enemy, you will?
:ignore him
9. (Repeat Question)????

10.What is it you want to tell him now?
:thks weizi
11.Your overall impression of him is?
:indestructble nipples
12.How do u think ppl around you will feel about you?
:retarded
13.The characters you love of yourself are?
:being neutral
14.On the contrary,the characters you hate yourself are?
:being a chicken
15.The most ideal person you want to be is?
:writer
16.For people that care and like you, say something to them.
: i love you

17.Pass this quiz to 10 people that you wish to know how they feel about you
1: ChunHao
2: Nelson
3: alan
4: Arthur
5: Zehao
6:jacke
7: gian jie
8: Zhihao
9: Rachel
10: Melanie

18. Who is no. 6 having relationship with?
:dun knw?
19. Is no. 9 a male or female?
:a retard
20. If no. 7 and 10 are together, will it be a good thing?
:Impossible
21. What is no. 2 studying about?
:O'level
22. When was the last time you had a chat with no. 3?
:Yesterday
23. What kind of music band does no. 8 like?
:Pop
24. Does no. 1 have any siblings?
:considered so ba...
25. Will you woo no. 3?
:hell no...he'll date-rape me...
26. How about 7?
:no ba...he molester
27. Is no. 4 single?
: most prob...are u??
28. What is the surname of no. 5?
:CHANG
29. What is a hobby of no. 10?
:watch anime?
30. Does no. 5 and 9 get along well?
:dey better...
31. Where is no. 2 studying at?
:1st TP
32. Talk about something for no. 1.
: my tag team tkd partner...
33. Have you tried developing feelings for no. 8?
:we are too alike so no point...like mirror to mirror...
34. Where does no. 9 live?
: amk?
35. What colour does no. 4 like?
:not sure...i knw white...but uh...black?
36. Are no. 1 and 5 best friends?
:they are hao's...like duh...
37. Does no. 1 have any pets?
:he got a imaginary fren named BOB
38. Is no. 7 the sexiest person in the world?
:no...i am...haha
39. What is no. 10 doing now?
:slping?

few days

2008-11-05T10:05:00.000-08:00

woah
few daes since i posted man
haha
too lazy to type liao

was busy thinking bout my life
i am planning man
fore sight a little
haha
but
nth much poped up man
haha

it is what it seems?

2008-11-01T08:41:00.000-07:00

it came suddenly and it left suddenly
we always say life is like a show
u go and entertain the world and soon the show ends and curtain closes and u take your bow
is it what it is when we all know that we will die when we grow old
we all seem to know that we will die
than i ask what is the meaning of life itself??
if you asked a maschosistic person, he will tell you its meaningless
and if you asked a Philandraphist , he will tell you its as simple as making everyone else around you as happy as they will feel
but which of the both is telling you the truth?
is it that the maschosist is telling you a statement of self denial or is it that the philandraphist is just too optimistic?
if you asked me...

pain is the only way you can clearly prove that you are still alive
if a person breaks your heart and you feel sad bout it
if you get hit on the head
if you get stabbed in the palm
you will clearly feel these pain and feel it deep you will
thats because you can feel them thatyou can assure yourself you're still "alive"
emotionally and physically

where as being philandropic is an act that not only brings joy to others but it is an act that will bring joy to your own heart
the joy you get from helping others is not a sense of some measurable by the efforts you put in
but it is so much as even helping a lost soul find their way thru a crowded street or helping an elderly cross a bustling road.
any common people will think that this is a mere act of daily courtesy but u may have not seen the picture as a whole for you see, the lost soul may be on their way to find their loved ones and you helping with his directions will save him alot of time that they can use to save with their loved ones and when you help the elderly cross the road, you may have indirectly saved their life because as you see , elderly people will tend to faint when the weather is chaning indefintely,especially when they are ill from the start,and with u as an helping hand, they might still faint, but at least u will be there to help them off the bustling road and prevent a life-ending accident..

i'm not saying that i'm a philandropic-maschosist but i can't deny the fact that i think that the way they prove how they feel about life is definitely a way which i think is the real way of how we should prove that we are alive

people may buzz thru the streets all day but most of them are mere shells , hollow and empty inside. they have lost their senses on the most basic stuffs.they have taught themselves to not torture themselves with earthly emotions and so they are nothing but mere shells

whist zombie-ing thru the streets,there will be certainly some poor souls that will just seat by the streets selling cheap stuffs such as tissue papers or some simple items but no one would really patronize them,even though we all knw that those people are probably depending on our money to help them thru their day,we still don't patronize dem...

this may not really be seen as an generous act and it may even be seen as an business transaction to some...but when they stand there all day and earn only those mesely amounts of cash and coins they have gotten,they would thank god rather than curse the rest of the world that didn't buy stuffs from them...

are they the real philandropic ones or us?

i think that the reason why the world is gonna end soon is not because of all the blunderous acts we had made but its because we are slowly lacking the basic nessecities to stay alive...
no wonder they sae the world is dying soon...and it wont matter if its global warming thats doing it...cuz we're all gonna be half dead hollow zombies before we know it...maybe sooner...

me and you

2008-10-31T09:37:00.000-07:00

i can be the one that you want me to be
i can do anything that you want me to do
i can make you happy when you're sad
i can make you laugh like mad
i can get you presents that you like
i can pluck you some stars in the nite
i can be with you for as long as i live
i can give you all that i can give

but...

u made me sad sometimes
u made me mad at times
u always keep things from me
u always like someone else but me
u can never think of me
u will never fall for me
u still keep me close to you
u will talk to me when u want to

yet...

i still want to think of you
i still want to be with you
i might be angry with u
i might wanna beat you tooo
i knw i juz sae it thru
i will never wanna hurt you
i can still be near you
i might still be in love with you...

2008-10-30T09:08:00.001-07:00

sad

2008-10-30T00:02:00.001-07:00

ever felt happy as if your heart would pop out and beat a drum tune?
ever felt so sad that you can hear your heart crumbling and cracking like a piece of shattering glass?
ever felt so lost that even a map wouldn't help you make your way to your home toilet?
ever felt so disappointed that you wished that you were never born?
ever been in front of some one you love like hell and bluff them saying that you hate them?
ever see someone like with another guy in front of you?
ever seen them walking around you for more then a few times and you have to fake a smile and sae bye to them?
ever been to the same skool with someone you hate to the core?
ever made friends that will steal your stuffs and backstab you when you least know it?
ever faked like you didn't know they were doing crap behind you?

well
neither have i...
lol

my blog is not dead

2008-10-29T22:14:00.000-07:00

hey hey
i still rmb i have a blog la
lazy to update only
its like daes since i turned on my lappy la
lol
ya
went fishing with GJ issa and jacq de other dae...
half way rain la
kao
den didnt catched any fish till like when we was about to leave the jetty
wah met some kind uncles la
helped us made some hooks so easier to catch fish..
lol
i still dun have the photos so nxt time den post it...
ya past few days was rather boring...slack slack onli...
haiz
boring....

byebye
ciaossu~~!!

church peeps are cool

2008-10-25T08:39:00.000-07:00

went to wee chong's church activity today
quite fun ah but tiring ah
wah lao
play captain ball with the church people la
den the west people that went were me,chun,zhi,guang,nelson,yong wei,desmond and of course wee chong ah
wah we nice nice spilt up into pairs in our own grps and we seperated into me and guang,chun and weechong,nel and yong wei,zhi and desmond.
haha
fun ah
we won man!!!
woot!!
but nth in return la
for the fun of it nia
den we went back to my house to bathe , we as in wee chong me and desmond.
den went to the church for a BBQ!
wah eat loads man...gonna burst soon...ate like 30 odd pieces of wings...drank like 10 odd cups of punch...siao ah...
but hey...bonded with the church peopleand made a few new friends !!
dey are cool la
very friendly..
but now i so tired i gonna end soon ah!!
BTW they even made us a little keepsake piece of glass that was hand drawn and i think that its kinda touching ah!
like dey made an effort to do something like dat although its simple ah but its like i appreciate their effort a lot ah...
thks church peeps!
had lots of fun!!

well...
go slp liao
ciaossu~~~!!!

kerman kong kai mun

2008-10-24T00:48:00.000-07:00

boohoo...
i sibei sian...
sian dao lao sai...
eh anyone who sees this...
u muz knw...
i'm currently super bored.
why should u all knw this...
its because i'm lonely at school...
no one ask me to pon to go find dem....
sian -ed
no one for me to pon school for ...
dats why muz write dis stupid post...
see
waste time rite?
successfully spent a few minutes....haha
well
bye

this the season to be jolly

2008-10-22T03:58:00.000-07:00

hey ho
some ass-bitch said my blog full of wills and words and no photo somemore
so i had to do somethings like this when im damn bored at home...bored to death actually

this is me
twas fwe years back...christmas i think
this is related to my hoobie...slowly guess ah...
this wad my previous temporary job...
this is like my dream guitar man!!

well

dis is to kill time..

i did it now...

well

bored again...

hey...

i think i'm missing someone man

its like didn't see her for daes but felt something missing

but i not sure

err

so be it...

well~~

ciaossu~~

falling sick soon

2008-10-19T09:42:00.000-07:00

i have insomnia now...
i got gastric pains
i lack slp
i lack a little love
and i think i lack rest
now i got wierd moodswings
i fall into depression mode siol
i keep thinking bout death and it sucks man
i dun wanna die man
how i wish everyone and thing can live forever.
but its not fair
lifes like dat...
we live
we die
i hope i can die with loved ones
i wish all my frens would die first
so i wouldnt have to see dem cry when i die...
that would really suck
its not that i want u guys dead man
i mean if we were to die
if...
dun all spam my tag board hor
i love u guys!!!
relax
especially any westies that sees this...
haha
and u oso...

haha
nites

ciaossu~~~!!!

somethings missing

2008-10-18T07:59:00.000-07:00

i got this wierd feeling that something is missing...
i lost that feeling one night when i took the bus with someone on the way to her place...
someone told me a wierd news and my heart beat when faster...my mind went blur...
she told me it was a lie...but it turned out to be true...she lied bout it being a lie...
nvm
i saw her with another guy...i went up to see if it was true...made me look like a damn fool...
i went back down...feeling a little blue...not knowing what to do...but then i see u..
u were walking around with that other fool...not bothering me but i'd mind when u walk around me as if i can't see you two...
then i made up my mind not ever to want to see you...
i told my friends shit about you...
i told them to hit the other fella when they see the both of you...
but in my mind there was still you...
now i lost that feeling...
and i couldn't find it back...
guess my heart is numb now...
thats all thks to you...
if i ever see you...
i wont make myself hate you...
i'll remind myself i once liked you...
and treat u how i used to...

the newborn

2008-10-16T09:19:00.000-07:00

one day...this newborn baby was born...
he was scared of his surrounding and well,all he could do was to cry hs heart out to have someone that is warm and loving to hug and kiss him whole day long...
soon,he could see with his little eyes and he could see how little his hands were, who does two people that hugged him whole day long were and also why is the sky blue,why was the grasses green,why was his bathing water warm and nice and also why was there this feeling that something was missing when he didn't have that two people around to hug him all day.
then soon enough,he started to take his toddler little steps and could speak with a limited extent of vocabularies and he would yell out for the two people that always hugged him when he wanted to,the people that kissed him when he kissed them too...
well,that baby grew up alittle so he was brought to a school, to learn and to make friends. to learn how to write his name and to draw out simple shapes and picstures and as soon as he got his little hands on a piece of paper and some crayons, he'll draw out the two people that is always at home waiting to hug hm and ask him about school,the two people that will kiss him in the forehead whenever he comes home in tears when someone scolds him in school.he would never draw anything else because he liked to see how happy that two people would be when he drew them together.
he soon learnt what was exams and what was attending lessons, that became the first two things that he hated,he hated when he gets a scolding from that two person at home when he fails them,he hates it whenever his lessons was always the same time as his favourite TV shows. he hated those two stuufs that he had to do over and over again and soon he realized that he was going to do that for the remaining years when he have to carry on studying.even though he was rather gifted at doing those stuffs that he hated,he didnt like to do them cause he was lazy.he was lazy to stay in that boring classroom and listen to that boring teacher of his, lazy to open up his textbooks and lazy to memorized them all into his head with the least amount of time that was available for him to use up.
then came along the age that he turned rebellious, whatever he is doing now always seems to be wrong to that two person at home. what ever he wants is always too much or too unaffordable for that two person to provide for him. then he found a quite way of getting things that he wanted and it was both fun and free.he would go meet a few of his friends and they would distract the store assistant for the longest that they could and the rest would then get whatever they want to and they would spilt up their collectables after they have successfully got off scott free.
then he began to fly solo,"to hell with friends to help me" he thought.he went in to a certain mall and took an item and sneakily placed it into his bag,but this time, the sales assistant was rather vigilant.he got caught and was brought to the office.he did not know what to do.he panicked and panicked even more when he heard the sales assistant wanted him to call home.
well he had to call home or else he would be brought to the police station and even he knew that it was not a good place to be brought to and it would land him into serious trouble then. about half an hour later,the two person came and he saw the dissapointed look on their faces. he never once forgotten that dissapointed look the two person gave him till the day he died and for the very first time, he cried but the two person didn't kissed him in the head to make him feel better, nor did they hug him to make him feel more warm inside.
they went home solemn and when they reached home, he instinctively apologised ,that was what he thought would make that two person feel better , but it didn't work this time.that two people was in a lost.they began to argue with one another, blaming the other person for not looking after him good enough,not giving him his wants and needs more.
it was the first time he had seen that two person argue in such a serious manner and that left the second deepest impression in his life, how that two person yelled at one another for hours and end up quiet at each of their tiny little corners of the room.
it was then that he was quiet and went back to his own bedroom when the two person didn't notice him and he thought to himself,"hey, i was just unluky,thats all.yeah,unlucky,won't happen if i were to do it again with more care for other watchful eyes around."
well, this time he was careful , how couldn't he be?he was going to steal the mafia's loot they got from extorting their slaveful sources,and he knew he would be in deep trouble if he got caught and it was not going to be as simple as making a phonecall home this time round.But still he got caught,he was too slow and they caught him red handed, he made a run for it but he got cornered within mattter of minutes and the mafia gave him no mercy.
the baby was back into the hospital where he first arrived to this planet. all he was aware of was not the pain in his gut, it was not the fact that he couldn't feel his arms and legs no matter how hard he tried to, but it was the sub-consious fact that it was the second time of his life that he was in a hospital.and it was going to be his last.
the baby was crying now. he was to weak to call out for the two persons at home and so he remembered how he used to do it and so he gave it a try. even though he couldn't really made clear view of what was infront of him, he felt this long lost warmth that he knew he felt before. he cried even more and then, he felt this two kisses on his forehead and he knew, he felt this feeling somewhere before.
well at that very moment, the dissapointed look that he never forgotten, the two person's dissapointed expressions poped up in his mind and he said in his tears"i'm sorry....mom...and dad...i'm sor.. ry.. .. .."

damn sian...

2008-10-16T00:29:00.000-07:00

my hair grew longer...
have to cut liao lo
wah its curling already...
have to wait till 1st of nov to cut and dye...
i think i'm gonna highlight blue i think
or at least golden brown...
but gonna be short ah
hate long hair man
will curl like ripcurl
lol
lame
haha..

woah!!

2008-10-14T01:12:00.000-07:00

woah few day nv post liao...
not dead blog ah..
i ws just getting lazy again...
being lazy sucks man...
is like totally no mood one lo
kao
wah sian
today rain siol
tuesday ball dae ah!!
den rain
how can siol...
knn
argh!!

well
cya bloggy!

ciaossu~~~!

9th oct o8

2008-10-08T09:36:00.001-07:00

yay!!!
my b'dae is over liao
happy happy
damn gan dong la
thks westies!!!this is like de best birthdae i had so far man
thanks goes to alan,arthur,chun hao,zhi hao,ze hao,wee chong, desmond,yong wei ,jackie,samantha,rachel,jayseah,melani,issabelle,roselyn,siwei and jane...
of course other people that were not dere such as shan, johnson and nelson

thks u guys
i think this was the most splendid celebration in west ba...
thks man
i damn touched ah!!!

not only dem but also my W34C-mates
thks all of u all...
thks for the super sweet 5 flavoured ice-cream waffle with choclate syrup coating and a lollipop on top...super great and along was coke and a lot of tibits man
power la...i felt like i grew 10 pounds ah!!!
thks anyway
heart felt feelings ah

and also thks GJ and Sandy!!!
thks for surprising me early in the morning with the oreo cheese cake!!
BTW
i knew u guys were planning something
something fishy was going on and i felt it !!!
thks dudes!!!
loved the cake!!!

thks everybody
thks for such a wonderful present!!!

will show de pictures taken on my b'dae!!!

well..nites babe!!!
ciaossu~~~!

7th oct

2008-10-07T08:59:00.001-07:00

i happen to think that i am living in a life full of bliss.
i have a group of not at allperfect but wonderful frenz
i live in a family which could provide for me in anyway that they can
i have a band of brothers that grew up together and spent most of the time with one another.
THKS MY EVERYTHINGS.
u all complete me
i thk god thk my mom thk my dad for all this man.
the greatest present u all gave me was nth more expensive.
it was nth nice either
u all gave me life!
i thk u both for living with me, spending time through my nonsenses,giving me protection and still loving me for whatever i had did in the past.
thks mom and dad!!

i wanna thk my frenz too...u guys make my boring life a little more interesting.
u guys made me mad at stupid stuffs
u guys made me laugh at stupid stuffs too
some of u all made me cry
while i made some of u all cry
but hey hey....true frenz are there to make u enjoy ur miserable life...

haha

last but not least,i wanna thk my westies bros
we practically watched each other grow up man
i still kinda remember how we met each other man.
some came and never left
whereas some was like with us since we knew each other.
thk u all man
u all made me into who i am today...i think if i hung out with another clique last time...i would've been dead or worst...a geek...haha

thks people ...
sounds like a will but i assure u all i'm fine \
relax.

gd nite

ciaossu~~~!

2 more daes man!!

2008-10-06T09:01:00.000-07:00

hey hey!!
its the 6 th of Oct when i wrote this post so its gonna be 2 more daes to my 18 th birthday man
i feel quite vexed man
i'm in a relationship crisis man
have no special someone to celebrate with me man
hahaha
its not that my pals aren't special enough but its just that my social circle is right now kinda like paired up man...i sae it out loud and proud that i ENVY dem...its not a matter of enjoying freedom or not but i feel lonely when i see westies slowly have GFs den my school pals are rather active as well...sian
but nvm ah...i want to have a long term relationship 1 ba...i think its sort of a "love retribution" i think...a girl dat i used to like asked me if i believed in this...and i can tell u now that i still believe it...believed it then,believe it now!
i had a relationship that i didn't cherish in the past man...had like this puppy love thing but i kinda lied to her that it was a serious thing but than i broke up with her cuz i think i got bored of it le ba....think that retribution happened..she was the last girl that was my GF...hop that this retribution thingy would just wear off if its true man...haha
enough of the emo flashback man....

i learnt that every person learn from their mistakes....i made a lot of mistakes with relationships in the past man...probably the main reasons why i still dun have a GF ba...like i cared too much...den i cared too little...den i didn't even bothered bout her...i think i kinda knw wad crappy stuffs i did le so..ya...thks cupid...thks for not helping me man!

lol
ok liao la

ciassu~~~!!

SUNDAY NITE~~!!!

2008-10-05T07:37:00.000-07:00

wooh...back from work and now at home slacking....heheh...

got a headache ah!

ton last nite...

had to blog cuz i found a super old pic dat brought west together man!

we took this in vivo this year man...this year power ah...had loads of fun lo

this is the pic we took like 3 yrs back man!

we all lasted 3 more yrs together as the pervo 5 man!!

we argued,we fought , we slept on each other , we even almost kissed one another....but it still remains de fact that the pervo 5 is still here babe!!

P.S: notice dat in the 3 yrs back photo ,chun forced de kissed....3 yrs ltr he turned straight and rejects me....sob... :(

super late posting...

2008-10-04T16:46:00.000-07:00

wooh~~
went to help Wee chong move house yesterday morning!!
den it took quite a while la but we managed to got all the stuffs out the hse and made our way to marsling in 1 piece man!

lol
den we had to unload Wee chong's old stuffs to his new house and after that~~his parents took us to eat dinner on their treat man!!
we went to eat bah kut teh!and along with some braised pork and some kang kong!
woot~~
shiok lo....den after dat we went back to tpy to have a DoTA tonning session and some martell his bro gave us~~~
heheh

this is the apparent reason why this post came late:)

well there wasn't any kick to the martell...we had no internet...den we used ad-hoc(which sucked BTW cuz not all of us could join the game)....den my bag got drenched cuz the air-con leaked water and some retard left my bag open under the air con...DANGIT!!!

BUT~~~

it was all good la!not bad ah...at least with my frenz...den we didn't kill each other in betweeb arguements....den we all made it throught the nite in one piece...
haha

SRY TO XIAO JUN oso!!!
she looked me out to go have a drink with ET at panjang? yesterday afternoon but i had to ps her...SRY AH!!

i bought my shoe!!!

2008-10-03T12:33:00.001-07:00

yes ah!!!finally boought my shoe liao!!

YEAH BABE!!!!

bought Adiddas SS2G!

team shoe liao lo....i got the same with chun and guang!!

now west got the big three liao lo!!

first is chun-the small big three

next is guang-the medium big three

finally is ME~the literally BIG three...

lol

chun thought of it lo...WTH

den after dat went to TPY blk 222 basketball court to try shoes!

power ah

felt like can do a lot of things with it...

lol

show u all de shoe!

YEAH~~!!!

hhaa... but today had to ps ET dey all and also the rest of the class lo...sian...

SRY MY PEEPS!!

dey went to watch movie but i didn't knw man...i knew like too last min liao!!

sry ah!!!!

okay la

go slp liao

ciassu~~

JUDO!!!

2008-10-02T09:48:00.000-07:00

hey hey
tiring dae today man...
went to skool and had a fun time with classmates in class

some pics dat i took dat dae and forgot to upload...
hey world...meet rocky....from W34C
Ian showed me his butt...clarissa showed me a spaced out look...lol
Kathi was gonna to go meet frenz man!!!
dats ET...the lady behind is our facilitator...
and dat is a canoeist name xiao jun!!

look at her dumb smile...wanna act geek somemore...lol

ya i went to try out Judo todaywith albert,wah hectic siol
have to learn to fall first...muz learn how to fall so not to hurt ourselves...
den have to learn how to fall in all directions...KAO!!...i hit my family treasure when i tried to fall forward la...
lucky not that pain...cuz i STRONG!!!
lol...den went back to tpy den went to meet west peeps...sian...had to miss bball....thursdae lei!!!
how can miss...somemore dey had a ball of a time lo...

nvm nvm
i gonna buy new ball shoe liao!!!
YES aH!!!
haha
have to rest my aching bum liao...
signing off!!~~~

2008-10-01T08:24:00.001-07:00

You are The Fool

The Fool is the card of infinite possibilities. The bag on the staff indicates that he has all he need to do or be anything he wants, he has only to stop and unpack. He is on his way to a brand new beginning. But the card carries a little bark of warning as well. Stop daydreaming and fantasising and watch your step, lest you fall and end up looking the fool.

What Tarot Card are You?
Take the Test to Find Out.

tired...

2008-10-01T07:09:00.001-07:00

today damn tired man...
dead stone lo...
have to work somemore...
at work was like stoning the whole dae doing nothing...den went to eat LJS @ cineleisure for lunch...den saw jocelyn tan man..
she work the same place but only now different booth...
lol
so near to her old booth somemore lo...
den went back to work den i saw josiah(i think i spell wrongly)
den saw xuanqing oso...shopping with her BF...enjoy life lo...
haiz...how come i cannot got a GF to shop with de...sian-ed ...
but nvm la...
lol
now at home...doing nth...actually wanted go meet chun weecheong dey all de but too darn tired liao le...so...have to ps dem...SRY AH!!

okay finish...!!

long dae today...

2008-09-30T10:12:00.000-07:00

today went to swim in bloody helll SengKang lo!!!

nnb

all de way dere zo bo

just to play slides .... which i didn't play BTW...but ok la

at least with west peeps...den fun-ner...better than nth ba..lol

den we all went to west play ball...not bad rite...energetic rite....

but wtf la...raining....heavy somemore...think might have fever lo...

but nvm ba....at least if fever den someone in west sure will kena oso de lo...

oh ya !!! WEST peeps are basically like bros la...

my brothers-from-another-mother

well this were when we were like erm....2 yrs back?

this two pics were recently de...still roughly the same amount of peeps ba...not bad huh?

we all met at different times but we are still together as a whole ba...

although some came and left...we were still like bros la...

not bad ba...quite big grp...can play 5v5 basketball most of the times...

lol

okay le!

signing off!!~~~

sian dae...

2008-09-29T10:17:00.001-07:00

woah...boring dae man...dun knw wad really going on todae siol.
go to skool,cannot use lappy in class for meetings...
during break took soooooo long to install de Call Of Duty 4
nnb
sian...

after skool went to watch disaster movie with charlene and E.T(myclassmates BTW;frm w34c)
really was a disaster lo..kao...KAO!!!
wasted $6...haha...
den sheau jun ps us...
!@#$%^$#@!#^&
but nvm...see she small den nvm
lol
thats bout it man
oh ya!!

went to west at nite ...till 1 am?
den was toking cock with weechong yongwei and chun den there toking cock...
plus some juicy romance stuffs
hehehehe
haha

k la
dats bout it...nites!!

WAHLAN so LONG nv update

2008-09-28T08:31:00.001-07:00

woah 1 yr since i update my bloggy
cux i forgot it exists man!!
i saw kinshen's blog and i 'remembered' i kinda have a blog too ah!
haha
so finally i found it and updated it man...wooo
few more daes to my b'dae man!
woohoo

26th november 2oo7

2007-11-26T00:33:00.000-08:00

hey hey hey
i got blog liao
lol
finally arx!